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Assalamualaikum wbt.. 

Selepas hampir setahun lebih baru hati terdetik lagi maw hupdate belog ne. 
Hari ne 11 haribulan November 2015, lagi tiga bulan usiaku menginjak 26 tahun. haha. Semakin tua engkau Aminah Hasan. Begitu cepat masa berlalu. Minggu ne aku lawat adek aku yg sedang sarat mengandung d tempat pengajiannya, segala apa yg aku lihat d persekitaran universiti ne mengingatkan aku kepada UKM. Ohemmgee.. 
Rindunya aku dgn varsiti tu. 

Kehidupan solo yg betul2 privasi tanpa gangguan sesiapa, tilam & cadar yg empuk. Meja belajar, rak buku, loker, walaupun agak buruk, tetap jugak aku merasa selesa. Oh my life, i wish one day i will. Impianku utk jadi seorang usahawan berjaya belum lagi tercapai, tapi xpa, biar Tuhan yg tentukan, apa yg boleh aku buat sekarang ne adalah berusaha bersungguh-sungguh. Okay, berbalik kepada topik asal, ntah macamana laa keadaan barang-barang study yg aku tinggalkan d ukm sebelum ne. 

Stationary yg berdozen, barang2 mandi, termasuklah extension. haha. MasyaAllah Aminah, semua barangmu ko tinggalkan begitu jak. Anak-anak patung hadiah befday entah kemana2. Kenangan yg paling aku x boleh lupakan satu jak, masa tu ujung tahun 2012, Hani, salah satu housemate yg duduk satu rumah dgn aku langsung xmaw bukak pintu bilik, macam drama la pulak aku berdiri depan pintu biliknya sambil menangis, dea dlm bilik menangis, sampai sekarang aku xjumpa2 dea lagi. Dengar cerita Hani sambung PHD sekarang. 
Yang paling mengharukan, Hani selalu masak utk aku masa exam. Nampak sgt dea syg gila2 ngan aku. wuwuwu.. Aku rasa aku kena jumpa Hani jugak. Rindu sgt dgn budak sorg tu. 

Btw, ai ai sekarang busy dengan jualan tudung. As always ai ai mmg suka sangat menjual, ai is happy kalau cust puas hati dengan jualan. hahaha.. Baru-baru ne, aku dengan siblings ada buat photoshoot, we really enjoy sebab semua merasa pengalaman baru. 

Inilah shawl yg jadi rebutan sekarang ne. Eceh-eceh jadi keknis aka Hanis Zalikha bila memakainya. hikhik. Nanti sambung lagi ea semua.

Sasa Preloved..

Assalamualaikum w.b.t..huwahuwahuwa.. lama aku tak hupdate belog. Ne suma sebab kesibukan yang melampau-lampau. Malam ne aku buntu maw buat apa lagi utk preparation Garage Sale Ahad ne. Sambil2 berfikir baek aku hupdate. 
Before that, okay, few months ago. My 2nd sister bertunang. And yang paling melucukan at 1st, semua orang engatkan aku yang bertunang. harharhar.. Lucu banget. Nampak betul ke'caringan' uolls terhadap I. Not me okay, but my younger sister. 

gadis tunang d himpit penyibuk2 yg gila glamor. haha

nampak gaya kaler peach memang pilihan yg tepat

Mr & Mrs Fiancee.. 

Okay, salah satu queen penyibuk.. semua baju adalah from Qarya Zaraa.
Jangan salah paham lak, bukan diorang taja, tapi aku ngan adek2 aku yg g beli okay. hahaha

Actually ada banyak lg gambar tapi aku rasa dah cukup. Malas plak aku nak upload bebanyak. Dah terlanjur aku cakap pasal Garage Sale, yakni Sasa Preloved, meh aku ceritakan sikit. Sasa Preloved ne hak milik kawan skola aku merangkap mak andam yg sediakan pelamin & tempek mekap kat muka aku & adek2 aku masa tunang tuh. Shashalina Sultan nama penuhnya. She's one of updated fashionista at our hometown. And I admit, im not. haha. But.. Sebulan lepas Shasha bagitahu aku kalau boleh dea nak aku join Garage Sale kali ne, sebab she want to do a garage sale with her bff. Okay guys, im not so bff with her actually, but we're okay since school, so as she respect me, and vice versa.. She ask me to join her.. Tadaaaaa...

okay guys..ne Shasha.. dun say u didnt know the place and time coz we've done so much campaign bout this comin preloved. Campaign leww sangat..

So lots of stuff..

Sekewrrttt.. baju.. handbag.. shoess..

hah..yang ne pown aku excited gilos.. flowercrown.. bole la aku acah2 jd fairytales (sambil pusing2 sekewrrtt)..hahaha..

So, stay tuned and please datang.. cant wait to meet uolls. Me & my siblings jugak ( dengan hati yg berdebar-debar) akan memulakan jualan secara terus produk DK Cosmetics. Its homemade cosmetic guys. Selamat, halal & dijamin berkesan. Sebelum mengakhiri entry yg agak kelam kabut ne.. I just want to share my picture & my fellow friend yg selalu be my side everytime. hehe. Sebab diorang ne laa hidup aku tak bosan.. Gitchew.. 

 Safwan, Sheyla, me, Nyna & Mira

Ada banyak lagi gambar.. Seriously but aku dah penat nak upload. haha. Need to continue my work. So genyte guys.. See uolls then.. hihihihi

Kareen Kitoka

Assalam.. Hari ne mood hupdate blog datang lagi. My life for this few months full of enjoyment and happiness, maybe sebab aku banyak luangkan masa dengan kawan-kawan aku, family aku and orang tersayang. Owh ya, sebelum tu Selamat Hari Raya maaf zahir batin semuaa. Hihi.. I think it still not too late to wish. Lama banget aku xhupdate. Sebab busy, sebab xdak mood, sebab lupa dan etc.

My sibling..

parents + sibling + daughter

Unbelieveable ari ne aku duk ruma satu hari. Except petang tadi aku p amik gambar raya family sekali antar and amik mak aku dengan macik aku g sana sini. Then pas maghrib tadi lalak and mira ajak aku kuar tapi d sebabkan mood study datang, aku refuse and duk bilik hadap laptop ne. Tapi sampai sekarang aku xmula study. Hahahahaha... Tak mau berbicara lanjut pasal setadi. Marilah kita bergosip.

Before that, just want to inform, adek aku, 2nd daughter kepada bapak aku, ada released new product, so anyone who interested please kindly pm me via Facebook okay.. Bukan new product tapi yang sebelum ne jugak, just rebrand and they do for some advancement of formula. Maksudnya kualiti produk semakin bertambah laa giteww.

Full set.. 

Okay, the main reason I want to update is.. Farah.. Farah Liyana Hamzah. She’s my best friend during primary school. We just met again (via facebook) last year. I was happy coz being able to meet her, know her, spend my time with her and so on.. I still remember, when we was 11th, she give me a Doraemon purse as a birthday gift, its a damn real touchin moment coz she got the idea from my notebooks. I draw a Doraemon inside that book and the caption was, my favourite cat. Hahahaha. She said she ask her mom to buy the present for me. Then give it to me during my befday.

But at the same time, Sheila, oso close to me. Actually, two of them come from 5B, and I was in 5A, but our headschool combine half of student from their class bcoz of inadequacy of school teacher. The most funny ‘story’ is they fought and hate to each other. Am not sure if they still remember or not. But I still, yes I am. Haha. Farah and Sheila wants to be my bestfriend but at the same time refused to be a trio, so I decide I’ll spent time with them by do an interval ‘things’, Monday with Sheila, then Tuesday with Farah. I love to bring my own food (because I love fried noodle so damn much, esp yg my mom masak), so they must follow my rule. Farah..if you still remember u love an egg toast so you bring it everytime we have a break together. You tell you’ll ask your maid to prepare it for you, make some more so that we can share a lot. I miss that moment. Haha.

Maybe sebab jodoh kuat, coincidently, our father know each other sebab diorang selalu berurusan d tempat kerja. Not long time after that, the most sad part is, during standard 6, you’re going back to your class, and we are being busy with UPSR preparation, starting to be apart. After that you’re leaving me sebab ikut abah kau pindah KK. We lost contact. 10 years later, you found my facebook. Thanx coz still remember me and do keep in touch. I’ll coming soon to visit you and your family. Cant wait to see you bebeyh. Hehe. I love all of my friends, all of em coz they owez make me happy and overload thinking bout em.

Last But not Least..

     Assalamualaikum wbt.. Hari ne, 12 may 2014, actually is my parents 25th wedding anniversary. Love u mom & dad, hope both of u will last forever till Jannah. Please do pray with me. hehe. Memandangkan aku free hari ne, so aku pon kuar & jumpa kawang-kawang aku kat The Garden. Sempena bulan terakhir aku bekerja & sebelum aku balek hometown tercinta. Lagipun since trip ke Sunway, da agak lama jugak baru dapat jumpa diorang.

   Today was a very wonderful day for me but at the same time, its also a sad day. Before I reach The Garden, I walking around at Midvalley Megamall. Satu kewajipan bagi aku is walk in to Vincci. Theres a sale, 50% + 20% discount. Bonita also got. Buy 1 bag then get free 2 bags with one clutch. Am gonna die or crazy. haha. This is me what. I love sale + discount. Its really great to buy a things with a good discount. 

got this one for RM15 only. the most cheapest shoe i ever bought from Vincci

i cant remember how much for this, but i bought this for 50% discount a few weeks ago, Vincci oso. haha

     My name is Aminah Hasan. This is me. Try to change, but sometimes it work, sometimes didnt. haha. After got the superb cheap shoe, am heading to The Garden to meet them. We're going for makan-makan then borak sampai lebam. Oh God, am gonna miss them so damn much. Yiannie, Jenjen, Nurul, Barry, Aunty Foong, Aunty May and others. I didnt spent so much time with them but we're really close to each other. The most touching moment is when Yiannie start to crying hardly. Maigad. I promise to them I'll coming when got time. Coz Im not going to forget all of you. 

No..I cant go another day..

No..I cant go another day..... Enjoy this..

Fallin to this song already..

Yuna - Colors

I'm lying on the floor
I'm drowning from the storm you make
We both know it's difficult
Nobody said we'll get hurt this way

Don't say that I don't have to stay here any longer
Who are you to tell me what I don't deserve?

(chorus)
You need to listen when I say
I just want you
Hold on don't let it slip away
I just want you

Know that I can't go on another day
Don't let all the colors fade away

Love was something that
I thought I'd figure out on my own
An empty space my armour crumped is all I see went you're gone
You say all the things

That I don't want to hear
But silence is not what I want either

(chorus)
You need to listen when I say
I just want you
Hold on don't let it slip away
I just want you

Know that I can't go on another day
Don't let all the colors fade away...

Impian vs Sebenarnya Aku. . .

     Assalamualaikum WBT.. Salam penghulu segala hari (walaupun ada kurang dari dua jam sak lagi kul12 tengah malam). Hari ne aku MC, tak keja gitu sebab demam teruk. Takut jugak memandangkan sekarang ne musim denggi. Tapi alhamdulillah sudah kebah, hope esok aku boleh pegi keja dengan senang hati. 

     Bersamaan 3 April 2014, means semalam laa, aku pegi interview kat RHB Banking Group, RHB Centre at Jalan Tun Razak. Honestly, inilah peluang yang aku tunggu-tunggu. Nice offer. Be a banker for 5K and above income per month. Laen lagi allowance and so on. Being a sophisticated woman with an outstanding career. What a wonderful life. Then after a few years, I'll start for my own business, resign and leave everything. That is what I dream about, not a plan but just a dream. Till I did not sure where should I put a beautiful Marriage Plan. haha. 

     But today, its different. I've changed. People can change right. I decide to shove the excellent position just like that. Coz I know once I decide to accept it, I'll have to sacrifice my life, overall, then nothing left for me. Manusia hanya merancang, tapi Allah yg menentukan. I dont want to be apart with people that I loved especially family and friends. Also of course the oned and the only. Do u ever heard when we choose one, we have to get over the other one. Sama macam prinsip konsep lepas dalam ekonomi, bila kita memilih yang terbaik, kita harus melepaskan kedua yang terbaik. I didnt mean career overcome our important fellows but sometimes career was our own life, coz the others also have theirs. 

     I've changed a lot and I know that. I realize that. People had changed by time, almost. Me also maybe. But the main reason I've changed isnt just cause by time or time is the main reason, its not act. But something else. Something that meaningful beside time as a gold. Its not easy to change dude, as I want to stop doing some of my bad habit and etc. But the fact is, I was changed already. I was being acceptable in my relationship although before I was thinking that Im a failure. And end up be like that, but now its different.

     For someone, I manage to care so much, for someone, I intend to change my personality (esp to throw away that silly egoistic), for someone, I try to improve myself from time to time, and because of that person, almost everyday I prayed for my self asked from the Lord hope that I wouldnt lost him. 

     Happy & bersyukur dengan hidup aku sekarang ne. Keja okay, boss and teamwork pon okay. But for all my beloved person, I'll resign soon coz skarang ne aku agak takda life. Kerja kerja and kerja. Kawan-kawan merungut, parents aku jarang contact, masa adek aku PLKN plak, sekali dua jelah aku dapat lawat budak tu. Maigad. Its really teruk.. huhu. I'll start my own business together with my friends. Insya Allah. I'll be okay, survive and succeed. Allah kan ada. hehe. 

Urggghhh.....

My Big Problem..

    Long time ago, I realized that I have a few bad disease of attitude. From then till now it still cant be recovered. Maybe it just be like that, never change and remain the same. People on my surrounding will face, feel and be force to accept it. My super bad attitude was I cant take it if I make any mistake or failure. Thats why I dont like and wont take any risk in anything. I'll become so anger and put my self under the maximum depression. Nobodys perfect and I know that but still my mental cant overcome it. 


    I'll stop talking to other people, stay away and take time to recover myself. Thats who I am. I hate risk, I hate failure, hate so damn much till I cant accept it and take a risk. This is not about for cant being 'redha' but when you're doing wrong, you have to bear all the effect. At least for a week then I'll stop think that I was stupid, cant handle a simple things and whatsoever. It will easy for me for being mad and driven crazy. Me was 24th years already but still cant control myself. Is it short term of deppression or what ? What should I do. 


    Theres a few situation can make me turn to this situation. First, assignments, I'll depressed when lec say it as off topic. Less point. Got nothing to do with what they wants. I dont want remember about my thesis, its teribble things ever happen in my life ever. Also, I cant give the best during do my job. I didnt submit one of my report just because I think theres a lot of lack of information & guideline. I cant take a risk for being a critism victim. It was during I being a reporter. Its a big failure actually. I try to forget it but still cant. No regrets but hateness. 


    What should I do with my self ? Cant express my feelings, cant control my self and sometimes just explode as a bomb.